My holy grail moment. My ‘aha’ moment. The day I decided it was the day… The day I chose recovery and weight lifting.
I had an eating disorder and exercise disorder for awhile. I was tired of the crying and the disappointment I brought myself everyday. I was tired of being tired. I was just tired! I couldn’t take anymore of the stress I was causing myself to have over nothing.
I just know I NEED to get better. I knew that stepping on the scale and crying that I was bigger than I was freshman year wasn’t healthy. I knew that crying that i have a lower stomach “pooch” wasn’t healthy.
I need to have a healthy relationship with food. I need to be able to workout to make myself happy. I am going to do self care first. Make sure my mental health is in check before going to the gym for change.
If you’ve ever had depression, you know how hard it is to get out of bed some days, or even take a shower. I’m working on making sure I have a routine with the gym and self care before becoming committed to the gym itself.
I am going to do a review on the gallon water challenge soon to show just how drinking enough water can change you physically and mentally, so stay tuned for that! That’s my first goal for self care!